Once a month posting

I'm alive. Things have been getting going around here. I've decided to step back on some obligations because it was getting to be too much. I was doing swim with the boys, speech with Leo, the pug fostering and just general life stuff got to be all too much. Maybe it wouldn't be that much to most, but to me it got to be overwhelming. I even stopped going to the gym the last month. I NEVER do that.

I managed to make this months calendar. I am pugless. I do miss the little guys, but school will be starting again and I will have 2 classes again. I made an important decision to go back to my paralegal degree. I only need 9 classes after this semester. I want a real job. A career. Taking two more years to do an art degree that I'm not even sure what I'm going to do with... well.. it was just unrealistic. I still might try eventually to get my degree in art, but I realized at this point in my life I'm way too sensitive and stuck in my ways to go into a classroom setting where everything is subjective. What they like or don't like is up to the teacher. Criticism is a way of life and well my skin isn't thick. I would rather look at art as doing it for me and for fun. Maybe sell some here and there, but get back to the original outlook I had on it.

I have not carved a stamp in months. I have not designed anything for months. I miss this. I am going to try to join in on this challenge this month. I have two days a week now that I am free to paint. I am going to start this week. So I might actually post more than once this month. I'm hoping to getting back into commenting and reading blogs too.

Here's to hoping. Thanks to all still reading. :)

July

I've been gone from posting on here. Life just sometimes spirals into this thing where washing clean clothes and doing all those things you have to do, gets in the way of all the things you'd like to do. And sometimes just sometimes you just really don't feel like doing anything at all anyways. I did manage to finish my June digital calendar.






























I have a strong suspicion that July is not going to go as well in the digital calendar area. I haven't made the base yet. Its like the 11th or something isn't it? :( I don't know the date. Sad eh?

Today I had my dental work done on my two cavities. I was a mess. I took the lots of Valium the dentist gave me and my usual Xanax and it still wasn't enough. The god awful smell when they drilled was horrible. Huge ass shots. ugh.. I did not pass out. I'm pretty sure that is impossible with that much anxiety meds in your system. I am thankful for that. I hate passing out. I get better and better at managing it as I get older.

I pass out regularly. I've been doing it ever since my first shot I can remember when I was 5. I watched them do it and then I was on the floor. I've passed out when my dog got a shot before. Even the smell of rubbing alcohol bothers me.

My mouth hurts. I'm going to take some more medicine and watch something on Hulu and go to bed. Tomorrow is another busy day.

I miss you all my blog buddies. One day soon I'll be back in full force. Someday when I'm in better spirits and have more time. :)